Embracing Hope: Sara Brawner, So Much Left to Give
In a recent issue of the Magnolia Journal, I was touched by the story of Sara Brawner written by her husband, Billy Jack, homebuilder and photographer. He lovingly describes the strength of his wife to be able to embrace hope even in times of profound loss.
He wrote of his wife, “Maybe it’s too obvious to even mention, but you see and know someone in a new light when you walk through the darkness of death with them.”
If you haven’t heard about the Brawner's, their story has captured the heart of the Internet and beyond for the grace in which they’ve carried themselves through the death, birth and new beginnings. The Brawner's experienced several miscarriages, and the loss of their daughter Willa at 34-weeks when she was delivered stillborn.
After losing their first child, Billy Jack recalls, “[Sara] was confident in being broken and in acknowledging the world is not how it should be.”
Addressing the brokenness of the world head-on, they began to foster a little boy after this great loss. After some time had passed and an opening was created, the Brawner's accepted a foster to adopt call for three siblings. As the adoption process went forward, they discovered Sara was pregnant and she eventually gave birth to a healthy son.
In one year, this tiny family of Sara and Billy Jack has grown to seven. Their family is by no means traditional, but by opening themselves up to experiencing all the hues of love from the darkness of despair to the brightest joy, they’ve arrived at a beautiful place soaked in hope. I was struck by the openness to what they were so called to do, which was raise children and be parents, no matter how this was fulfilled.
Billy Jack concludes by observing, “There’s a certain confidence in her, not one born of her abilities or her beauty or of security in a safe and gainful future. But the kind born knowing she has laid down her life for the good of those around her and she has nothing left to lose, but so much left to give.”
This story touched me in a special way and gave me hope after this spring when I embarked on my journey into the world once again as a single woman. Additionally, I experienced complications from surgery that that resulted in news that I would no longer be able to give birth to a biological child. As a child that was adopted, I knew deep down that I would be completing this cycle in the future by adopting my own children.
The Brawner's story reminded and affirmed my belief that if we are able to let go of expectations or what we believe is "supposed to happen" we may be blessed beyond our wildest dreams. If you are struggling with life transitions, anxiety or fears around fertility, reproductive loss or maintaining a healthy pregnancy please contact us to be connected to existing groups or individual services.
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